Your gonna die in seven days.

I know I have to move on...i know Chang doesn't want me anymore. I have to move on now but it's hard, I still love him, I still love him so much...even though I'm mad at him and don't even want to see him at this second...I still love him. We've had to many good memories together...and that's what hurts the most.

Chang broke up with me.....we've been together for 1 year and almost 6 months...and he broke up with me on Saturday 27th 2009. He gave me reasons, yes, but they weren't REAL reasons, they weren't. They were "You are unhappy with me, so I'm breaking up with you."
"You want to control me, i want to be free."
"Your taking me away from my family, I choose them over you."

So yeah....i haven't updated on here because I've been emotional unstable. I refuse to eat, sleep, or even live. I'm tired, i'm lonely, i'm heart broken, i'm dead inside, i just want to die. I am gonna to die....